facebook "friends"

ahhh... the glories of facebook. i personally find it to be quite fun to read about what my friends are doing. but then there are days like today, where it stings a little to read about the people you used to count as friends are doing. 

there is a group of gals i used to hang out with here in Texas. i used to consider them my friends, used to meet up for lunch with one of them regularly, used to play ball with them, and i used to get invited to their homes for parties and the like. somehow, along the road, i got on the "non-invited" list. and while i find their 7 day a week drinking habits to be a little too much for me, i do miss the camaraderie that having friends in your neck of the woods can feel like. i thought they liked my company. i thought they enjoyed my ability to pick up their card games quickly. i thought they liked the fact that i used their palates to taste test new recipes. but i guess, somewhere between january (the last time i hung out with them) and today, i lost the invitation. 

i am not disheartened, just that much more determined to make these next months my final months in Texas. i am not saddened, as i have friends in my life that may not physically be here but are always there for me. and i am not disappointed, because i know that in the end the loss is theirs. and if they ever find themselves on a trip to CA and want to stay at my house or hang out with me or have a tour guide for a day, i think i may not be available. in fact, because of the glories of facebook, i think by the middle of this week a number of them will be deleted from my "friends" list. because who needs to know what they missed anyways? 

on a happier note - my dad has been here this weekend and we have had a great time. it's been a long long time when it was just father/daughter day - and it sincerely is wonderful to have a couple of those to enjoy.